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My 22nd Year

In case you haven’t heard, I turned 23 this week. Like woah. I feel like it’s one of those weird ages where people say “omg so young” but also just paid my credit card bill with birthday money, (it honestly burned my “treat yo self” loving soul a little bit), so I’m not thaaaattt young and carefree. Honestly curious how old I have to become before people stop commenting on how young I am. I feel like probably 30. I’ll just immediately transform into a business woman with 2.5 kids and mortgage.

Every year, I always think back to where I was at this time last year and refer and assess if I have actually learned anything this year. From last year at this time to this year there has been so many changes and adjustments and realizations in my life that I feel like I’m 5 years older and not just one. I have worked pretty hard to get where I am, typing this, both physically and mentally.

Here are some of the craziest/weirdest/best things I did this year:

Got my first job in retail in order to save more money

I knew I needed to get a job that paid me more than 200 bucks a month (that was on a good month where I went everyday that I could), so I decided retail would be okay. I’m so very glad I did because this basically got me the job I have now and who knows what I would be doing if I hadn’t made that decision.

Stopped letting dudes ruin my fun times

It took 22 years, but I finally decided to stop caring about dudes and my need to be talking to someone all the time just because I’m bored. I let a guy run me rampant for months right before my second semester and then I got to feel stupid and manipulated. I vowed right then, I will not let a guy make me feel stupid for giving him my energy and I have yet to feel that way again. Not saying I have in any way figured out my love life at all, but at least I’m not wasting my time.

Decided Veganism might not be the stupidest shit I’ve ever heard

What started out as a challenge between me and my roommate not to eat bread or sweets became a whole new lifestyle for me. Granted, I did watch a scary documentary about how gross meat is, but deciding to just see what happens has been pretty interesting. I’ve made brownies with zucchini that tasted like heaven and gotten to try a lot of food that I usually would turn my nose up at. I’ll still never be that health bitch that’s like “I only crave nuts and berries!!!!!” but balance is key right? Yolo?

Realizing I don’t need a gym to stay fit, but utilizing it when I got it

I’ve taken so many awesome and fun classes at the UREC because I was privileged enough to get them for free while in school. It’s really helped me figure out what I like in workouts and what I don’t. Unfortunately, this is not the case now that I’ve graduated, moved and don’t really have a gym close enough to where I live. It was super hard trying to get up and workout before work when I started my new job since I wasn’t used to being up so early. Thankfully, I found some amazing workouts on Youtube for free and got figured out what works for me, not just what I think I should be doing or how long I have to do it for.

Doing shit because I wanted to, not because it made sense or I had everything that came after, planned out

I have been privileged enough to be able to make decisions about my life that were suuupperrrr spontaneous and not very well thought out. This past year, I quit a job because it was literally causing me stress every single day, to the point where I didn’t do anything but work and school. I decided that that was not how I wanted to spend my last semester of college, so I left and never looked back. Thinking about it now, I’m so very glad I did that because I had the best spring semester I could’ve asked for, and I managed to make the Dean’s List (for once). Obviously also me moving my whole life to NYC and getting a big girl job but I talk about that enough.

And last but not least, I started this whole blogging journey. Still don’t really know what I’m doing with this thing but I’m doing something I guess! I honestly really enjoy writing it even if only 3 people actually pay attention to it. Overall, this 22nd year of my life has been wild, but definitely one of the best yet (if not the best).

Here’s more highlights in pictures for fun:

Got the love of my life, my greyson, my boos butt, my poop and my heart.

Took a candid picture at Christmas that was probably the cutest picture I’ll ever take

Crashed a wedding with my best friend and had the most fun

Wore green lipstick and it changed my life

Drunk girls are the best don’t fight me on this.

Had a professional take pictures of me and didn’t really know what to do with myself

Got to visit my shnookum pop in Nashville and fell in love with a city that wasn’t New York

Got to meet this dog!!! All dogs are important. Also this was just a really nice day with friends

GRADUATED. Nbd

Watched my best friend get married and tore up the dance floor(honestly if your face don’t look like that when you dance then you’re not doing it right)

After 4 years of going to Fred’s I finally made it onto their FB page

Hauled my butt to Bushwhack after some crazy flights

Got me a professional 9-5 working for the MAN job.

And drank WAYYYYYYYYYYYY too much coffee at really cute coffee houses

Your Sunday Vibes

This rainy Sunday, I will be talking volume hair stuff, the the best work pants under 30 bucks, tv! music!

hit you wit the intro

Beauty¡

Full Dry Volume Blast™ Mini – Living Proof @Sephora $15.00

This blogger I follow has like the best hair I’ve ever seen in my life. Like its probably fake and takes 80 years for her to get it how she does in pictures but it looks amazing, always. So the other day, I’m looking at her Insta story and she posts about this volume stuff that she “supposedly uses” and I’m like wait they have stuff just for volume???? I’m intrigued cause my hair can get super flat and gross cause I wash it too much and touch it often. So I bought the tiny bottle and decided to just try it out.

Here’s my hair before (air dried):

And after spraying roots and fluffing(and straightening):

This claims to be some sort of god send, and while it smells like heaven it’s very meh. I think, overall it helped my hair get a little more volume than normal, but I felt like I had to use a lot of it to achieve what I wanted. Not sure if i’ll be buying more of it once my tiny bottle runs out.

Style¿

Large Scarf (Black, white and grey) @ H&M $19.99 (similar)

V-Neck T-shirt (similar) @ H&M $12.99

Simplee Apparel Women’s Slim Leg Stretch Casual Pants on Amazon $22.99

Literally need to stop taking my pictures in the bathroom at work cause someone is gonna walk in and its gonna be weird and I’m gonna be that girl. It got randomly warmer last week so I got to go jacket free and not freeze. I’m in love with blanket scarves cause it can be a scarf or a shawl type thing fro when it cold and you refuse to wear your leather jacket for the 5th day in a row (#relatable). I usually pair mine with a neutral top like this one in order to give my outfit some pizzazzzz or ya know just color. Okay lets talk about these pants. They are cute as heck with their ruffled waist and deep pockets. So soft and so comfortable. Saw some similar at this online boutique for about 50 bucks, but these are cheaper and look exactly like them! If you get them, do size up cause the butt can be a little snug. I’m gonna get them in every color by the time the season is up no joke.

Foodies¡

This stuff is like all the rage among health junkies and for very good reason. A healthier version of ice cream that doesn’t taste like fakeness and lies. My favorite are the Caramel Macchiato and the Sea Salt Caramel (basically anything caramel its gonna be good). Tip: let it defrost a bit before you eat it and it’ll taste 10000000000x better trust me I’m wise.

Fitness¿¡

Sarah’s Day 15 minute Fat burner Boxing on Youtube

YA’LL. Ya girl put out a new video and I was so pumped to try it when I got up on Saturday I didn’t even hesitate. This one really focuses on arms and abs while incorporating a little bit of legs with squats and kicks. I managed to burn 150 calories in literally only 15 minutes you can’t beat that. Also, when I woke up this morning my abs and arms huuurrrttt, but in the best way (cause my abs never get sore anymore for whatever reason). I really really loved this workout basically so go try it.

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Entertainment¡

Stranger Things on Netflix

Okay everyone and their mom is talking about this show because it’s amazing and if you haven’t seen it who are you and why do you hate good things. I watched this in a span of one day literally the definition of binged it. I have two things to say: Steve and Bob are the GOATS and are UNAPPRECIATED (especially Steve). And Steve honey if she doesn’t appreciate you then she aint worth it. okay bye.

Flicker By Niall Horan

Wow take me back to summer of my junior year when I was so obsessed with One Direction that I literally did nothing but go to the gym, stalk them all day on social media, sleep and repeat. Honestly, I’m glad they split up, sorry not sorry. Zayn blessed us with the best album ever, Harry got weird, and Louis and Liam are trying so hard to be Zaddys it’s embarrassing. Niall, thankfully is still his cute self and this album he finally gets to really sing and put himself out there as an artist. I’m proud of him okay? My favorite off the album is Mirrors.

Katie Does Things in NYC

Friday I tried the infamous Joe’s pizza and am confused. I mean its hard to mess up pizza cause even when its kinda bad its still pretty good, but this was very ight. Even a little, dare I say, burnt. I’m sorry. Bravo pizza in NYC is still #1 in my heart and taste buds tbh.

Saturday was a bit of home away from home. My friend invited us over and made some really amazing gumbo and sangria. I was a very happy camper. Then we watched LSU get its ass beat by Alabama for the fifth (?) year in a row. Lordy. The hurricanes at good ole Legends helped ease the pain thankfully.

Fun weekend in preparation for the big 2-3 next week!

The Vibes Weekly

Alright baby I’m back with a vengeance, I am on time this week! And! I did some cool stuff okay.

Beauty¡

Your Skin But Better CC+ Cream It Cosmetics @ Sephora $15.00 (small size)

Being totally real guys, I haven’t bought anything from Sephora in like, months. The issue is I spend way more than I want to every single time and so it’s better to never go in there at all. However, I was running out of Tinted Moisturizer and I really needed to stop jamming my brush into the bottle to get the last drop. So I went. I got a new tinted moisturizer since I said I would try to find something that wasn’t mf 45 bucks a bottle which is admittedly insane. Iv’e been hearing really good things about this one, I know its only like 7 dollars cheaper but my brain makes a huge jump from 30 to 40 okay!!!!!!!! And I got the tiny 15 dollar bottle. Anyway, another blogger named Katie (hay) recommended it, it won an Allure award for readers choice and has fab reviews from the Sephora website. So I bought both light and medium, but ultimately went with medium to match my self-tanner (lol).

Heres what both colors looked like on my skin:

Heres before and afters of my skin:

Tbh? Not super impressed. I like it, but its really not very different from what I was already using. The coverage looks to be about the same as NARS and feels about the same. I will say it is cheaper, so definitely worth checking out. I’m not going crazy about it since I still have to use coverup and I also wouldn’t say I’m necessarily using less of it either.

Style¿

H&M Gray Knit Top @ H&M $24.99

H&M Stovepipe Pants @ H&M $29.99

Faux Nubuck Pointed toe Pumps @ Charlotte Russe $19.79

I tried so hard this week to spice up my outfits and failed horribly lol. I really need a full length mirror cause I gotta start checking myself cause I am wrecking myself (self confidence wise). Buuuutttttt, I managed to get it right once this week so of course I documented it. I got so many compliments on my shoes, but I’m gonna be honest. THEY HURT SO BAD. I actually squealed in pain when I took them off at the end of the day. To be fair though, I’ve only worn them one other time. I cent tell if I still have to break them in, or just chuck them and call it a day. I’ll keep you updated. But they really are so cute. Also while looking for these on the Charlotte Russe website I realized they got some cute ass shoes. This top, is like my new favorite. Its shiny and slouchy and love the new sleeve detail trend so so much. Anndddd its on sale!!!

Foodies¿¡

Daiya Vegan and Dairy Free Cheesecake @ Wholefoods

I keep going to whole foods after work, starving, so I keep buying weird snack stuff. This required like 6 hours of defrosting for some reason, but I just left it on my counter for like an hour. Honestly, would recommend. It exactly like a cheesecake like if I didn’t have the box, I wouldn’t know the difference. So if you’re looking for a substitute, definitely recommend!

Fitness¡

Pop sugar Fitness on Youtube

I would like to proudly state that I worked out everyday this week thank you very much. I got on a kick of these popsugar fitness videos because they have a bunch of quick HITT workouts. I recommend just checking out the whole youtube channel, but my favorite is the one I’ll link here. Quick and really burns some serious calories!

Entertainment¡

Mind hunters On Netflix

I started watching this because lately i’ve been obsessed with serial killers (in a totally normal not gonna be the next serial murderer kinda way), mostly because of my favorite murder. I liked the overall concept and it was pretty good, but the end of it was kinda, ehh. I was waiting for some big blow up or like something really crazy to happen and it was just, oh okay that was a little weird. Kinda bummed but I will definitely stay tuned for the next season whenever that will be.

Tear You Apart She Wants Revenge

So I decided to post about this song because Halloween vibezzzzz even though its old. I heard it first when I watched American Horror Story: Hotel (which is the best one don’t fight me on this), and the whole time its playing theres like a super gore-y murder going on but its such a bop. You think the song is actually about murder, but its really just about a dude having s crush on a girl (which tbh is pretty scary).

The Girl Before by J.P Delaney

This book was freakyyyy. Its about two different girls who go through a traumatic event in their lives, and move into this really crazy, high tech, minimal house. One of the girls dies in the house and then the other girl moves in and then all these strange similar things happen to the new girl in the house. I’m explaining it so bad but its good I promise. Plot twists throughout, but like a weird sad ending.

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NYC Weekend Adventures™

So this weekend I went to a lot of cool bars!

Friday I finally experienced Mr. Purple, which sounds like some sort of trashy creep zone overtime I say the name of it out loud. It has a pretty awesome rooftop, although one drink is 17 dollars?? Since there’s no bag check, I suggest bringing a flask if you trying to have fun and not go broke. Next, was Beauty and Essex. The font is like a weird music room and then they open the doors to like this dark, staircase room. It just screams classy and sultry. I wish I had taken pictures of it, but also don’t wanna look like a dweeby tourist (I’m sure I’ll be back soon though). Also note the music was awesome, which means I was having fun even though I was kinda sober by then.

OOO I also went and got this baby:

It looked as good as it actually was, no lie. I got the seasonal spice flavor and damn was it good. 10/10 would recommend.

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Saturday, we tried to do spooky Halloween bar crawl but the universe was not having it. Every place was having some sort of halloween thing, we needed tickets for which is annoying. One place went to literally said “oh its $175 dollars but it’s open bar and theres a burlesque show and a really awesome DJ” and I was like honey, do you have an idea how much I would need to drink for that to be worth it?? G-bye. So we ended up just going to random bars and looking at all the people in their costumes. We went to this one place called KeyBar and it was pretty cool, but then this british guy who was having an existential crisis kept talking to us. Saying shit like “oh I’m more than my accent” and “you’re getting drunk because you’re trying to forget something.” I literally said to him at one point “Dude its not that deep..” I was over it. Tried to get into another bar that was supposedly laying cool 80s music but, had a cover which is so dumb this aint Fred’s free drinks I refuse to pay cover with no benefits. Might as well light my money on fire. Finally just settled on a few bars that didn’t feel like we were in the armpit of NYC. I guess this sounds like more of an un-success but I still had fun so whatever.

Your (late) Weekly Vibessss

So I moved again. This is now the third place I’ve lived in in the span of one month lol. Anyway, I went to a new coffee place to blog (gotta keep up the Carrie Bradshaw vibes). I picked this place simply because it was super cute and right between me and the laundry mat cause unfortunately I still gotta go somewhere and do my laundry ugh.

Anyway more on my life later, here are the vibes.

Beauty¡

e.l.f. Contour Eye Brush @ Target $2.99

Sephora Contouring Brush @ Sephora $32.00

I wanted to touch a little bit on my contouring (how the hell do you spell that??) routine that I do. Now, I aint no pro, but I try my best and I got compliments on it so don’t listen to me if you don’t want to!!! But these are the things I use and the brushes. The smaller one I use for contouring my nose, which by that I mean I draw some lines down the sides of my nose and call it a day. I also use it for highlighter after my bronzer. The bigger brush I use for my bronzer. I just sorta squish it in a straight line to get more of a straight cut down the side of my cheekbones. Then, I just go around my cheek bones and little bit on my hair line and top of my forehead. Last is the highlighter which I put on the tip of my nose, top of my lip, cheek bones, top of my eyebrows and the bridge of my nose. Sometimes I just use gold or I use my pink and gold eyeshadow like blush (as seen in my look below). Here’s a before and after!

Style¿

Sequin Sweater @ H&M $49.99

It got randomly super cold on Monday, so I had to break out my sweater gear (aka the two sweaters I have rn). I wore this to work and I got so many compliments on it?? Like out of the blue. It’s so cozy, cute and definitely has like an 80’s vibe to it? or maybe thats just me.

Slip-on Mule Loafers by LUSTHAVE on Amazon $24.99

I saw something similar to this on a boutique’s instagram and almost bought them. But then I realized I could probably get them for cheaper on Amazon and so I did lol. Blush is the new fall color (in case you’ve been living under a rock and didn’t know) and these are perfect. I wear so much back and these are great just the break it up and look like I know that other colors exist in the world.

Foodies¡

Okay FORGET what I said about the last oatmeal I posted about, like g-bye, cause this one is 10,000 times better. I got the blueberry kind and I’m sorry but I can only find it at whole foods. It takes amazing and very filling while also being gluten free! ANNDDD it has flax seeds which are amazing for digestion. Only downside is I can only find it at whole foods. Sorry guys.

Fitness¿¡

One of the hardest things about trying to stay in shape is getting up on the weekends and working out. My mind says “do it and you’ll feel better!” but my body says “sleep in and then eat cereal cause its Saturday and who cares.” Saturday I thankfully listened to my brain (although my body almost won) and worked out BEFORE my giant cappuccino. This workout was quick, but still kicked my butt which you guys know is my favorite thing. Not too much jumping and craziness either which is good because my place is small and I hate making a bunch of noise. One of the best things was when the girl was “like ugh I can’t go any faster” and I was like yes girl same #relatable. I burned about 150 calories according to my Apple watch in 20 minutes which is amazing.

Entertainment¡

Managed to watch and listen and read these past couple weeks so enjoy!!!

Wuthering Heights

I started reading this because my cousin said it was her favorite book and tbh I need to read more classics but I finished it and was like ?????? thats it???? It’s probably one of these books you just really need to take a class on or something not just read and never look at again. I really only liked the Narrator and wish they would’ve gone a different direction with him, honestly. Everyone was whiny and mean because of Heathcliff making everyone sad and miserable. Not my thing.

Dirty John on Spotify

My coworker suggested this at work the other day and I LOVEEEEEDD it. It’s about this con man who’s super scary and manipulate women for money among other things and the end is just like woah. It’s only 6 episodes and I finished it in a day because it was amazing. It has real interviews from the people who experienced it which is so cool. Definitely recommend if you like crime or serial killers or just crazies fascinate you lol.

Gerald’s Game on Netflix

I was attempting to get into the Halloween vibes the other day and stubbled across this while going through my Netflix. Its based off of a Stephen King book of the same name and it was actually really good and freaky without scaring the shit out of me like his stupid IT movies. Its about this woman whose husband handcuffs her to the bed and then proceeds to literally die on top of her which is now a fear of mine lol. It was really good and something I feel like I usually wouldn’t watch or something thats super well-known.

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So last weekend I had to get anew phone because mine finally had enough of me dropping it. I got the iPhone 7 plus and I love it. The pictures are ah-mazing and its huge but in a good way. Saturday I got to look at what my life would be like if I made real people money here lol. My friend somehow got the keys to her bosses apartment since she’s out of town and her view and her bed and everything about this place was so cute. Then we went to this singles mixer which was funny cause it was mostly old weird dudes of course. The only decent guy there was a British dude and I was VERRRY upset that some other girl had already claimed him. (he was only really cute in comparison to all the other weird-looking dudes). Don’t judge my arm idk why kept doing that in every picture sheesh.

Sunday I had to move out of my apartment and that was such a mess. I applied for a place that I guess rejected me? Still don’t even know. So I had to find a place literally on the fly. Ended up staying at an AirBnB that was so cute and quiet. I recommend for sure. Then from there I moved my stuff to my new place. It’s another temporary place, but its cheaper, nicer and I’m renting it for longer because I refuse to move my stuff again in the winter. Here’s a couple pics of my new place!

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I’ll post some of my room once I get it cute and fixed cause all of my stuff is currently just on the floor(which only stresses me out a lot).

This weekend I tried some new places that were fantastic.

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Friday, I had drinks at a place called Root and Bone. It’s in the East Village area and all through the month of October their happy hour proceeds benefit Puerto Rico with is cool. I got some really great wine and a chicken biscuit (not part of my vegetarian lifestyle lol).

Also they opened a fricken Target on 34th street and so obviously I had to go immediately. Kind of a small Target but hey it’s still Target. I got some stuff to decorate for fall and this super good smelling candle and my cold, black, fall loving heart is swooning.

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Saturday, I went to this place I’ve been wanting to try since I saw and Insider New York video about it and it looked amazing and good, We only managed to get a table cause some crazy people didn’t show up for their reservations (thank you so much random people). It was packed for a very good reason. The best Mac and Cheese I have ever had. Not even being dramatic. So amazing. One of those places I recommend hitting if you ever come to NYC. It’s right in the heart of Greenwich Village (which I have been pronouncing green-witch no joke how awful), and everywhere you walk is so cute I was in love and actually got lost just looking everywhere and missed my turn lol.

I also finally saw the High Line, which I’d been thinking is like a dinky bridge or something but its actually amazing. So many crazy looking buildings and some apartment goals. Another recommendation if you come here.

Next we went to Legends to watch LSU play and they kicked some butt. After a few hurricanes, we ended up going out to this place that kept playing like old 90’s and ’00 hits and I was jammin. We ended up staying out till 3:30 and I didn’t even notice the time until someone said something about it. Like I’m turing into a night owl somehow and its weird? I’m so used to being the first one to leave a bar, but NYC seems to have the opposite effect. So much fun.

I said this blog wasn’t gonna be a diary but look at me talking about my life like I’m important lol.

Advice on Adulting and Doing Scary Life Shit

As you’ll notice immediately from the title of this post, this is not your vibes for the week. I am very sorry. I will talk about my fun adventures and cool stuff maybe in the middle of this week? Idk. But anyway. If you’re only here for the vibes feel free to tune in next week….

I don’t know if any of you reading this has made a big move in their lives lately, but lemme let you in on a little secret………………………………………..

Its HARDDDDDDDDDDD. Especially living in a city where you know exactly 5 people and not really on the “take a bullet for me and let me fart in front of you” level (farting is also as important as a bullet). I’m used to living with my cousins whom I would do all of the above for and my mom being an hour away if I ever need anything. Up here, I have to fend for myself in a lot of ways I didn’t anticipate. So I wanted to do this post giving some tips/advice for anyone moving somewhere far away or just adulting and scared. Mostly NYC stuff cause that’s what I know.

First and foremost, just do it

One of my biggest struggles was actually making the decision to move and following through with it. I wanted to do it so so bad when I was actually in school, but then after I graduated, things got a little too real. I was stuck in the “planning for tomorrow and now tomorrow is today” and I got scared shitless, not gonna lie. I worried about money, if I would ever get a job, if i’d be lonely and sad, if I’d hate it up here, if I’d ever be able to come home again and if I should just move somewhere closer. Ultimately, New York has always been a goal of mine and I just got fed up with myself and within the span of 2 weeks, got a plane ticket, got a place and got outta town. It’s something you can’t overthink, you have to feel it and do it.

You have more stuff than you think and getting it all over there is gonna suck

Packing all of my stuff and moving up here was so sucky. I have way more stuff than I anticipated and it was soo stressful trying to decide what I really needed and what I could live without. My bags were all packed to the GILLS which stressed me out and they were HEAVY, which means getting my carryon out of the overhead bin was a struggle. To be honest though, I wouldn’t change it. I packed enough to where I had everything I needed and none of my luggage got lost, thank god.

DO NOT TRY AND GET AN APARTMENT IMMEDIATELY, I REPEAT, DO NOT

I seriously considered just getting an AirBnB for two weeks and then getting an apartment which is so very stupid and I’m glad I didn’t. If you’re moving to a place thats basically foreign to you and you can’t actually look at the apartments, do not try and get anything immediately. I got an Airbnb for a month and a half and it’s still a struggle trying to find an apartment. Honestly, that’s the most challenging thing for me. Explore areas you like and try to find places there. It also takes forever to get a place because they’re all over the city and working full-time while trying to look at places is craziness. Save yourself the trouble and just get something temporarily.

Dont buy too many groceries, you eat out more often than not

This is really just a New York thing, but I can’t tell you how many times I’ve just bought meals because I was doing something till really late after work, or I didn’t have enough time to go home and grab something. Sometimes, it’ll take me an hour to get home from the city, so buying dinner is a necessity unless I wanna eat at 10pm. Whole Foods also just happens to be right next to my work, and they have buffalo cauliflower so in the end I’m eating better than I would at home, thank you.

Dude just take the damn Uber

I love the subway. It’s usually fast and it’s cheap. But sometimes, and I struggle with this, I should’ve just taken an Uber. For example when I wanna wear heels to brunch and everyone on the subway looks at me like I’m the lochness monster. Or when I’m moving my shit out of my apartment and I really can’t carry everything without making another trip. Or when you just really wanna ride in a nice car that’s quiet and doesn’t smell like pee and you don’t have to be around other people. Sometimes you just gotta stop being cheap and give yourself a break from the subway hustle.

Determination will get you everywhere

Living in New York can get pretty difficult. From basically getting hit by a car, to moving out of an apartment without a car, to finding out you’ve been walking the wrong way down a street for 30 minutes, this city can be stressful. It definitely has kept me on my toes. One thing that has got me through it is determination, plain and simple. I’ve wanted to be here since I can remember and the more time I spend in New York, the more I fall in love with it. I am determined to be in this place that I love more than I’m willing to let its hardships bring me down. You have to want it more than any of the bullshit the city and life are gonna throw at you whether its a job or an apartment or just trying to thrive. You have to want it, like really bad.

Sometimes your decisions are gonna have to be quick. They’re worth it

I’ve had to make some quick and stressful decisions this past couple months more than I ever have in my life. New York moves so fast and it can be hard to keep up, especially coming from the South. I love it, but it’s a crazy adjustment. You gotta hustle hard and just got with it. I’m not used to making decisions, especially big ones, on the fly. Take a breath and figure it out.

Support Support Support

Lastly, I would not and could not be where I am right this second without the support of my family and friends. Everyone has their own opinions about the decisions you make in your life. I had a bunch of people saying how crazy I was for moving up here with no job. They were right of course and I knew it, but I had to go and find out for myself. However, I also had my fair share of support. Its the simple things like “wow you’re so brave that’s amazing” or when people get excited with you when you tell them about the cool adult thing you just did. I also wanna brag on my parents as well. My parents are amazing and have always supported anything and everything i have ever wanted to do. I can’t tell you how rad it feels when your mom says she’s proud of you or your dad taking care of something you just can’t do on your own. I’m so lucky to have amazing parents and friends who push me to do better and be better always. If you can support anyone doing anything scary or crazy, do it.

This probably goes without saying because ya’ll probably can tell from my posts but this crazy wild decision is the best one I’ve made in a long time. Right up there with going to LSU and buying that slice of pizza this morning. It’s been a crazy month but it also feels like I’ve been here forever? Excited for the fun times to come.

Your Weekly Vibes

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So I blogged at a new spot today in SoHo aka my favorite area lol. Ate the best cupcakes at Molly’s Cupcakes. Like better than Magnolia, seriously. (ps not vegan just good lol).

Anyways, continuing the never ending saga of the vibes.

Beauty¡

Not Your Mother’s Beach Babe Texturizing Sea Salt Spray on Amazon $5.91 (2 OZ)

I used to use this sea salt spray from lush that was, I wanna say $15? And when I asked the girl like “hey will this actually give me wavy hair? Like my hair never does that.” She was like “oh yeah totally.” Of course it didn’t and I’m annoyed that she pretended it would. At the same time, how would she know but still. Don’t advocate for things you don’t believe in sheesh. So I used that for a while and liked it okay but after I ran out, I just never got any more of it. I bought this one cause it has some pretty decent reviews and it smelled really good. I’ve given up on finding anything that makes my stick-straight hair wave, HOWEVER, this stuff makes my hair smell so good. When my hair dries, it dies. Its soon flat and feels thin i don’t know why. But this stuff give it life and not a bunch, but a perfect amount of soft volume.

Nexxus Shampoo Emergencee Conditioner on Amazon $16.97

Okay I got this at CVS for too much money and turns out its half that on Amazon ugh. Anyway, I mostly get this because it smells like, actually candy heaven. I feel like after I wash my hair I smell like an expensive goddess who wears like Gucci or something. I would say using this on top of the sea salt spray above leaves me with #hairsmellgoals

Style¿

Unisa Caytea Velvet Bootie @ DSW $49.99

I just got these cuutteeeee lil booties the other day at DSW cause I have been dying for tiny heeled booties (also note they are called cayteas lol). These KILLEDDDDD my feet the first time I wore them because I have giant gorilla feet and really needed to break them in, so don’t try to wear them all night the first time you wear them lol. I walk everywhere in New York cause I just love looking around the city (and kinda hate the unpredictable train) so finding good shoes that are cute, don’t hurt my feet and aren’t sneakers is so hard. Tbh after a while even my sneakers start to rub. These are so cute because they have a subtle design, they’re flat and closed toe. I’ve already wore them way too much they are now my go-to shoes.

Also please enjoy this aesthetic pic of me that my friend took in my favorite skirt. (its sold out rn but Forever 21 is good about restocking the good stuff).

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Foodies¿¡

Vigilant Eats Superfood Oats Cereal on Amazon $24.80 (6 pack)

In my attempt to find overnight oats at whole foods, I failed, but I failed upwards in that this stuff is so good. It’s gluten free, vegan, and still super tasty. I added a banana cause I’ve been eating this like a bunnnccchh lately. It says you can put cold water in it but uh I recommend regular hot water cause cold sounds gross. I’ve been on a oatmeal kick and this makes it easy, no spices or sugar needed.

Fitness¿

Heads up!!! PSA!!!!! Pure Barre is doing your first week free ladies!!!! Yeah literally a week of classes for free! I scheduled one every single day next week lol!!! Anyway, I was supposed to do this on Saturday but I was a little tired (and hungover) and rescheduled to Sunday where I vowed to get my life together. Okay so going in she was like, “just a heads up you’re gonna be overwhelmed cause we go super fast just try to listen to me instead of looking other people.” My visual-learner-havin-ass was like oh okay sure. So she was 100% right, it was fast as shit. She said to listen to her, but like most workout classes, they gonna play rave-y EDM music during the entire thing, so I could barely hear her. All in all, however I got a really good workout in. I like the combo of Barre and pilates. My body will most definitely be sore tomorrow (and all of the rest of next week because I signed up for everyday lol).

Entertainment¡

I’ve been listening to podcasts while at work these days because It calms me and makes the day go faster, I was trying to find one I liked as much as Pod Save America and was failing horribly. Most of the comedy ones were just comedians talking to themselves which is really strange to me or they would just be soo boring that I didn’t wanna listen anymore. I finally started listening to this one and fell in looovvveeeee. I know yawl all probably think I’m a serial killer now, but I promise its so fascinating knowing how these murders thought, their lives, and how they got to where they are. (okay yeah that sounds weird to be into lol). Listen to one and I swear you’ll believe me,

Un-Success of the Week√

So the only thing I could think of for this was me getting hit(or pushed, nudged?) by a car this week looking at apartments. I’m totally fine btw, but this dude like was not paying attention and like kinda shoved me with his car. I had the right of way cause the little light thing was telling me to go so if I would’ve died I could totally haunt his ass and be justified. I didn’t fall or anything, but obviously my heart came out of my mouth and screamed for dear life like “omg i’ve barely lived plz no!!!” I then proceeded to have, what can only be described as an “adrenaline black out while being awake” and cursed this guy into the next century (i would never do that in my normal life so thats why I say I must have blacked out). Also if you tell this story to your mom, she’ll just say oh my god in a worried tone whereas your friends will laugh hysterically. I will definitely be paying attention more when crossing the street (apparently even crosswalkers need to be on defense who knew).

Your Weekly Vibes

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For the next couple weeks (while I still live in Bushwhick), this lil place is where I’ll be blogging the vibes. Basically I’m broke Carrie Bradshaw nbd.

Beauty¡

Dove Dry Shampoo on Amazon $3.74

Not to be dramatic, but Dry Shampoo saved my life. I started using it probably my freshman year of college and fell in love. My hair is just naturally greasy and flat hair is not my friend so before this magic, I was just using good ole baby powder and headbands. The problem with dry shampoo, however, is some of them give you white hair and make it so dry and sticky. I have tried A BUNCH of different ones that smell weird or just don’t even do anything?? Thankfully, Dove doesnt leave white junk (unless you put like a pound of it, which I have done) and it gives my hair amazing volume, so I use it even when its not greasy, just flat af. In other words, my hair is 50% Dove dry shampoo always and forever.

Maybelline Color Correcting Pen @ Target $7.99

Okay so I’m so late to this game because I suck at makeup and really hate having a bunch of crap on my face all the time because breakouts. HOWEVER, this whole color correcting thing is something I can get behind. I put this on for the first time last week and legitimately forgot to put on my concealer after cause hashtag no redness!!!!!! Since this is the first one I’ve ever tried, I can’t say its the best, but its just green stuff so I doubt other ones are much different. (Also maybelline makes my fave mascara so its probably the best tbh).

Style¿

Stovepipe Pants @ H&M $29.99

Since I have a real people job, I gotta get real people clothes cause I can’t just wear jeans everyday. Literally as soon as I got the job I went to H&M and got these super cute pants. They have that low-key man-pants vibe, which is trendy***~~~ rn and very comfortable (plus real pockets). I’m wearing them with one of my favorite bodysuits that I’ve had for a while but here here and here are some cute ones too. Also wearing my new favorite belt and sneakers of course. And yes I did take this in the bathroom at work because I don’t have a full-length at home and I think it’s weird asking random people to take pictures of you ok!!!!!

Foodies¿

I know this is weird and i have no idea what possessed me to buy this, but I did. They’re actually good???? They taste the exact same, no joke. I actually starting to wonder what the heck are in these things, but also amazed at how much people stigmatize Vegans and Vegetarians as people who are like missing out on stuff, when really our shit taste the same and i don’t feel like a giant cow after.

Fitness¿¡

Arms and Abs Blogalites

Since I live upstairs and I ain’t got no space, its hard for me to find workouts that break a sweat but don’t make a bunch of noise. I’ve done a few of her “apartment friendly” workouts and they usually don’t do much for me, This one, however, I actually broke a pretty good lil sweat. Working out has been a struggle with my current schedule and living situation, but workouts like this definitely help.

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Entertainment¡¡

I did a bunch of fun stuff this weekend since I got my first pay check lol and I just wanted a fun crazy weekend cause you need those every now and then.

Friday, I saw the one and only Jim Gaffigan live at the Beacon Theater which was so funny and cool. The theatre is gorgeousss and I felt real fancy in there. One of the things I’m learning to do in New York is spending a lot of time just with myself (just cause friends can sometimes be few and far between in a city like this). So I took my own beautiful ass to this show. It felt a little weird, not gonna lie, but I had fun and I got to see a comedian I would’ve never seen back home.

Saturday was one for the books. I explored SoHo with some cool ladies and I love that area and just wanna live there tbh. The shops were so fancy, we even went into this cool lil market and I almost went full-blown hipster and got some fake glasses (don’t even judge me). Got dinner at this stunning restaurant and bar called Antique Garage. They had chandeliers, a fancy bathroom, and a man was playing the piano in the corner. I wanted to like remember ever second of it forever! Definitely made me fall even more in love with NYC. Then went to a couple clubs, which made me nervous cause I haven’t been clubbing in NYC yet and it looks intensee. Somehow, the people I was with knew some club promoters, so my lucky butt got to enjoy drinks for free (no gross man required thank u). The music was fab and the company was fab-er so a successful Saturday night in the city!

Spluuurrrrrggeeeeeee™/ Un-success of the week√

I did Soul-cycle when I first came here last summer and I really liked it. For some reason, this time was a no-go. I guess since I’ve done cycling classes before this one was just sub-par?? I really don’t know, It really gave me a strange cult-y vibe with all the music and shouting and periodical darkness and it just wasn’t long enough for me (only about 15 minutes of straight work). I went in expecting to feel exhausted afterward and that’s just not what I got. Also, there was a weird part where we slowed down and I thought it was about to be over and then we picked it up again, only to stop after – it was strange. All around blah. (so this is un-success and a splurge)

My second un-success was me and color correcting. I got this shade because I have naturally dark circles, no matter how much I sleep (they do look worse when I don’t sleep, however). Not really paying much attention to the colors, like an idiot I got dark ass red and was then promptly informed by my beauty-expert friend that I should’ve gotten a peachy color. I tried to just make it work a couple times, but I just looked sickly and off cause it was just too dark for me. Also, I put it on the first day I got it and didn’t put makeup over it cause i never put makeup on on Sundays. Well I forgot about it and went to do my laundry and as I walked down the street I was getting some kinda weird looks and I was like wtf do I have food on my face??? and then I remembered my eyes looked like they had just finished bleeding which tends to frighten people.

This Week Vibin

Sorry this one is LATE AF (and by late I mean, I never did one last week lol). I started a new job, so I work FULL TIME THANK U I DON’T HAVE TIME FOR THIS!!!@!#@!#@! (me forever for no reason about things I can definitely do). So maybe I should stop saying I’m broke???? Maybe I’m still broke who knows, I haven’t even gotten my first pay check yet. Okay on to the goodzzzzzzz.

Beauty¡

NARS Pure Radiant Tinted Moisturizer @ Sephora $45.00

I was kinda struggling on what to post here as far as beauty goes since I haven’t gotten anything new in a while. I decided just to show you a couple things I use already that you should all know and love as well okay. I love NARS tbh. I have tried their blush(more on that later), foundation, lipstick(I lost it somehow but it was a good one) and now their tinted moisturizer. I got this on a whim because Too Faced decided one day they were just not gonna sell tinted moisturizer anymore and didn’t even consult me on it. I like the light weight of tinted moisturizer just because my skin likes to breakout still even though I’m old, and when I wear foundation on the reg it tends not to like that. I haven’t bought this in a while (i am running out and refuse to go out and get more until every drop is gone from the bottle) and didn’t realize it was so expensive?? I’ll try to do better guys I just wanted a brand I could trust.

Nair Brazilian Spa Clay Body Cream on Amazon $8.49

Okay so I don’t use this particular product the way you’re supposed to fyi. You’re SUPPOSED to let this stuff sit on your legs and burn like the pits of hell in the summer, but I love myself so I don’t do that. Instead, I use it as shaving cream and that is the secret to life. For some reason I have yet to find something that gets my legs so smooth. Yes it smells like dog breath and farts, but it works, so just put some lotion on to mask the smell later.

Style¿

MoYoTo Womens Genuine Leather Belt on Amazon $14.99

No I don’t make so much money at my new job that I can suddenly afford a Gucci belt- sheesh. I actually stole this idea from another blogger (lol) cause she posted an outfit with this and I was like ?!??!?! okay we’re the same age there’s no way she can afford a Gucci belt and I can’t????????? So I clicked on that shop the feed thing or whatever and saw that she tagged this as an option and I was like whhhaaaaattttt where has this been all my life even though I was never looking?? It’s great for my current NYC life cause I feel like I have to keep up with the 1% as you do.

Foodies¡

Free Bread Inc. Gluten free bread at Whole Foods $9.00

My journey through veganism continues. I stopped eating gluten as well (idk if I ever mentioned that?), not because gluten is “bad for you” or because I’m allergic or whatever I just noticed that I am very bloated and kinda icky after eating normal breads and pasta and I would like to enjoy my pasta without feeling like I ate 70 pounds of food. I’ve tried a couple brands of this. Tbh Trader joes has a pretty good one, but the bread pieces are elf sized- so not really ideal. This one tastes like sour-doughy and spongy and very bread- like. I am impressed, and its made for people, not elves.

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Fitness¡¿

One of the best things about NYC is all the random free stuff that goes on around here. Which is especially good since everything else costs money so its nice to have a free thing once in awhile to break it up. Went to this like “oh who cares what I look like i’m just gonna sweat and I refuse to put on makeup that makes no sense.” Basically I left the house looking like a troll and my shoes matched my leggings which looked odd and OF COURSE the guys teaching the class were hot and Australian. Sometimes the universe just likes to laugh at me and I find it irritating. Anyway, as far as the class goes, it was really awesome. I burned 465 calories according to my handy apple watch which I don’t know if I’ve ever done before? It was a HIIT style workout, which means you do 3 rounds of three different workouts for 45 seconds on and 15 seconds rest. Each round is about 12 minutes and by the end you are DEEEAADDD. It was a fantastic way to start my Saturday which was filled with a brunch that was in no way gluten-free, but very guilt-free because of the workout. Also, funny side note, one of the Australians was like “Thanks for coming!” and I was so close to saying you too, but I caught myself 1 second too late so what I ended up saying was “You-uh yeah sure” which was basically a stutter. I have never wanted to crawl into my shirt and evaporate more in my life.

Spppllluuurrrgggeeee™

So since I got a big girl job, I needed a big girl bag (cause that’s how life works). I really needed something I could just keep a bunch of stuff in if I was gonna be in the city all day and no time to go home real quick (I live far af currently). It took me like all day to decide which bag to get. I went to both the Kate Spade store and the Micheal Kors store and all of their bags were about 300. I make money now, but I ain’t trying to spend no 300 dollars on a bag, at least not right away sheesh. So i decided to just be basic and go to Macy’s. Luckily, they were having a sale and I found this beauty for a little over 100! Which is pretty damn good for a tote bag that’s designer if I do say so myself. I also picked up this lil pom pom just cause it was cute. I definitely recommend it and its still on sale so grab it while it lasts.

Un-success of the week√

(change that yasss to nooooooooo). As stated above, I do love NARS. Their blush is one of my favorites because it’s not too pink, and tends to stay put very well. HOWEVER, this stick-blush is the bane of my existence. I bought it one day when I was running out of the powder blush just to try it, and I’ve been trying to make this shit work for literally months! It’s mostly due to the fact that my skin is not as smooth as a baby’s butt, so it doesn’t go on smooth, and when I try to smooth it around, it comes off. I hesitate throwing it away because money, but there’s really nothing else I can do with it. Still love u NARS.

This Weeks Vibeź

Take a sip babes, the vibes are back in action.

Beauty¡

Banana Boat Summer Color ® Self-tanning Lotion @ Target $6.99

I thought I had given up on the whole self-tanning thing, but my mom had this one just collecting dust. So here I am trying out another self-tanner. This one is going pretty well! Although, I have been using it prreeeetttyyyy sparingly. It hasn’t gotten on my clothes and it doesn’t look like I murdered an orange person in the shower. It does smell odd, but they all kinda do in my opinion.

Shiseido Eyelash Curler on Amazon $19.99

As you all know, my eyelashes are very straight and very annoying. HOWEVER, paired with this fabulous eyelash curler and my fave mascara, my little straight lashes are fiyah. I haven’t found one that makes my eyelashes stay up or hold their position as well as this curler (and I’ve tried a lot of those babies).

Style¿

Corduroy Overall Dress @ Forever 21 $24.90

It’s already getting chilly in NYC (which is scary as heck), so I’m starting to focus on some transition pieces that aren’t too heavy for fall. This dress is suuuuppper cute and great with black or white (in my case black and white) and not too hot when walking these NYC streets. Also, it has pockets thank u lord. My sweater that I paired this with is gone peecon, but I liked three other options here, here, and here that are similar and would be just as cute!

Foodies¡

Daiya Cheddar Cheese

One of the hardest things about my attempt at vegan-ism is the fact that I can’t eat cheese anymore (mac and cheese is life). I was at this little healthy store down the street getting groceries, and I stumbled across this gem. They had a few other kinds, but this seemed the safest to me. It’s actually really good guys. Not like its only good cause I have to eat it, but like actually pretty good. I was shocked. Good cheese made without dairy? I’ve officially seen everything.

Fitness¡¿

Aaptiv on the App Store $9.99 per month

After waking up with pizza sweats Monday morning (yes that’s a thing, maybe and we’ve all been there- don’t judge me), I decided to try this new app I recently downloaded for running and just training in general. I tried the strength training another day but it was really weird having someone tell you what to do without you seeing them do it, so that part was a fail. Yesterday, I picked a running exercise to do that was about 30 minutes total cause I didn’t wanna do too much on my first try. I also pick an intermediate level exercise because I’m not a beginner when it comes to running, but expert sounds a little too confident for me. I started the thing as the trainer coached me through what I was about to do and I was kinda nervous because she started by saying I was gonna be “cooked” by the end of it. I figured I could handle it since I do cardio a lot. She was right when she said I’d be “cooked.” If anything my ass was overdone. However, I recommend at least the free trial run of the 7 days because I managed to do 2 miles in 11 minutes (my regular time is 9 minutes for 1 mile). Also, my apple watch informed me that on this run I burned the most calories I’ve ever burned while running yay! For some reason it helps me if someone is telling me what to do. (I have great self-discipline, but it can only go so far once I’m winded).

Entertainment¡

Take Me by Aly & AJ

So it definitely must be 2007 because Aly and AJ are back banging out the hits again. I will admit it’s not Potential Break-up Song, but it’s so very poppy and has an awesome 80’s vibe to it that I always love.

Ryan Hamilton: Happy Face on Netflix

Little known fact about me: I watch stand-up comedians like nobody’s fricken business. I wanna say the first comedian I ever really watched was Louis C.K. when I was in high school. This was before Netflix, so I watched him on YouTube (how I found that I have no clue at all). I must have watched his 2009 stand-up like a million times and it’s still one of my favorites. I also had the pleasure of seeing Aziz Ansari live in Baton Rouge and my cousin, Kristen, and I were basically crying with laughter. Probably one of the reasons I’m so excited about having moved to NYC is getting to see more of them live (Jim Gaffigan I am coming for u September 30th as soon as I get some money and a job). Anyway, I tend to be a little hesitant about watching new comedians (because i’ve seen some real doozies), but this dude was great. I love any comedian that talks about stuff I can relate to, obviously, and he touched on a lot of stuff about NYC people. (For instance when they say “I couldn’t live anywhere else” I died because someone literally said that to me the other day), dating (or lack-there-of) and babies (or lack-there-of). Highly recommend watching!

Sppppppppllllluuurrgggeee™

Leather Slip-on Sneakers @ Steve Madden $59.95

I was lucky enough to get these shoes because I was returning a gift. I used the store credit from that return and I so glad I got them. I wear these babies a lot because they go with basically everything. They’re perfect for fall and winter with the quilted-looking design, but super durable because they’re leather, not suede.

Un-success of the week√

So this isn’t necessarily a thing that failed me, but myself that failed, or maybe Rite Aid, I haven’t decided. I know from coming to NYC last year, that Target is a luxury that is not afforded to me anymore. (Today I did discover one in Brooklyn, but sadly it is like 45 minutes away by subway). I thought my AirBnb was SUPPOSED to give me towels for my showering use; however, that was not the case. September 6th was a very rainy day and I really needed to shower and get the airplane stink off of me so I trekked to the Rite Aid in hopes of finding towels. Rite Aid let me down. They didn’t even have my dry shampoo. I was at a loss. I then proceeded to go into another random grocery store and look again to no avail. My last-ditch attempt was a 99 cent store, which I assumed was like a Dollar General where I come from and the Lord blessed me and I found towels! I should have known, of course, that the dollar store would never let me down. I shall never doubt its powers again!

Thoughts I Had During Terrifying Turbulence

A few days ago, I flew to NYC in order to pursue my dreams of becoming an adult and getting a job (whatever or wherever that may be). My parents drove everywhere we ever went, so I’ve only flown twice in my entire 22 years of life (first time being last year for my first stay in NYC). Flying is the worst, I’m just gonna say it. The waiting is the absolute worst and that’s really all flying is, waiting. Waiting through security, waiting to get on the plane, waiting in line to get to your seat, waiting for them to take off (which can take FOREVER), waiting for the plane to land, waiting for the the plane to get to the little gate thingy (idk what its called but it feels like we drive around for 20 minutes just to get in that thing) and then waiting for everyone in front of you to get off so you can wait for you stupid bag and wait for your stupid cab. Basically, I’m taking notes from my family and I’m just gonna drive everywhere I ever wanna go (this will actually not happen since I have no car and I live in NYC and my family is in fricken Egypt, comparatively).

This particular flight was horrific because I narrowly missed my first flight for 6:30 am. To be honest, I shouldn’t have booked it that early. Who on planet earth wants to be up and functioning before 6 am? Sorry not me. I wanted to earliest I could get in order to avoid delays and get the flying part over with. Unfortunately, my mom(hey mom) set her alarm for 5 pm instead of am so we didn’t wake up until 5:30 aka the time I wanted to leave. I basically ran through everything and rushed to get out the door, but we didn’t make it until 5:50 meaning I didn’t get to the airport before 6:15. Unbeknownst to me, you can’t check a bag 15 minutes before your flight, so I missed it. I was already stressed and angry so after hearing this, I was basically spitting with fury and close to committing a murder suicide (obviously murdering this poor defenseless airline worker and then myself out of guilt). Weirdly, he was very calm and basically acted like this level of anger is normal in society (I mean maybe it is for him in this line of work, poor guy) and got me another flight for 12:25 with a 4 1/2 layover in Charlotte, NC. Not at all ideal, but I was flying out today, so I took it. My first flight was pretty smooth, I was all the way in the back, which was awful, but no one was next to me so that was a plus. Once I got to Charlotte I commenced the longest waiting game ever and a fight for outlets because my computer battery is a joke.

Around 7 pm is when the annoyance of flying turned into more annoyance and then horror. My dad texted me and told me the weather was supposed to be bad in Charlotte as we were leaving. I figured they would just avoid it because on my first flight, that’s what happened. At first, the plane was delayed for 30 minutes. Thank god I didn’t move because it changed back after like 10 minutes to being on schedule. So after boarding, we sit on the tarmac for an hour waiting to take off because of “traffic” (sounds fake tbh). It was so much more awful because every 10 minutes or so, the engine would pick up and I’d think we were about to take off and then, sadly, it would slow down again. Finally, we took off around 9:20. I settled in with my music for a nice flight, only to experience the worst turbulence I’ve ever felt, the kind where the whole plane goes up and down and your stomach drops and you feel like your looking death in the face. Here are some thoughts I had while think about my imminent death:

Holy shit I’m sorry I ever complained about being on the ground

Thank God I out that rosary in my backpack before I left maybe it will save my soul after i die on this plane

I swear if I die on this plane with this psycho laughing next to me, I’m gonna be PISSED

What if I end up like Tom Hanks and just go crazy on and island surrounded by dead people instead of dying???

Please be quick, lets just go out in a ball of fire or something.

Oh my god I can’t believe I’m actually waiting to die, this must be some sort of plane irony.

Finally, after ascending enough, we made it out of the wind and the flight returned to normal. I thankfully am not dead next to a man who thinks my suffering is FUNNY and made it safe and sound to NYC. More posts to come about my coming adventures:)